Je suis content, the French translation for "I am content".
When asked what was on my mind i first thought of gratitude. Gratitude that things didn't get worse. That i'm not dead. Grateful that i didn't use this week even in my weakest moments. I am grateful that a year ago i was in rehab. I am grateful that today i am sober, i am not in that place anymore.
But really, i'm still not as grateful as i should or could be. So content is a more fitting word. Meaning that i am okay with how things turned out. I may not always like it, or get my way. But i can live with myself now. I can live this life. I wouldn't say i'm excellent, because i am experiencing boredom with my "dull" life. It isn't dull. But it is beginning to feel that way. But in this moment i am content with the dull life i'm living. Because i would rather be living a dull life, than the insanity of a life i was living a year ago.