I thought I would sit down and write about the current problems I'm having with my life. then i realized I'm too lazy. and no one really cares. Life goes on. Just remember that, when things get hard. When life seems to end. When the sky is falling, and the ground is sinking beneath your feet. Just remember that today may be falling apart, but the sun will come up tomorrow. Life goes on.

Failure

I am a failure. I can't be normal. I can't party like everyone else. I won't settle with just a little. I go big, even when I shouldn't.
I have found somewhere. A home. Friends that are just as much of failures as I am. They may be older than me and may have fallen deeper than I did, but we have one thing in common: who we are. ADDICTS.That is where I belong. In a room full of fuck-ups, fuck-ups trying to live.
We don't live like most people. We don't function like most people, we don't think like them. We are different. We are on the island of misfit toys. I am okay with that. I am a misfit toy. I am not normal. I am a screw-up. I am broken beyond repair. I have failed. I am a failure, trying to avoid the same mistakes. Does it always work? No. But at least I have a place where everyone else understands me. Understands that fucking-up is the easy part. Fixing it is the hard part. 
I may be a mis-fit. Fuck-up. Broken. A Failure. But at least I have people just like me.

Don't You Worry Child.

Now Julie lived down the street
She wasn't always accepted, She was a little bit unique
She's spent her whole life tryin to be cool
But she wasn't ever that popular, And the other kids were cruel
When she went to school they ignored her, Acted like she wasn't there
Her mom was always at work, And her father just never cared
So she spent the nights in a pillow, Just drowning out all her tears in fear
That she'll never be accepted by her peers
So she started smoking cigarettes, She started poppin those pills
She even cut her wrist sometimes love the way it feels, Started wearing long sleeves to cover the scars
She even got grounded for stealing her mother's car
So she snuck out and got blacked out
Woke up the next day in some random person's house
Found out about a month later, She had a baby in her womb
The next morning Julie's mother, Found her hanging in her room

Upon the hill across the blue lake,
That's where I had my first heart break
I still remember how it all changed
My mother said
Don't you worry, don't you worry child
See heaven's got a plan for you
Don't you worry, don't you worry now

Love is Louder

Love is louder.

Love is louder than... hate.
Love is louder than... bullying.
Love is louder than... cyber bullying.
Love is louder than... cutting.
Love is louder than... depression.
Love is louder than... drugs.
Love is louder than... pain.
Love is louder than... tears.
Love is louder than... a broken heart.
Love is louder than... child abuse.
Love is louder than... violence.
Love is louder than... fighting.
Love is louder than... abuse.
Love is louder than... hate.

Love is louder.
Let's love.

Waiting for the End

This is not the end This is not the beginning, Though words sound steady Something empty's within them
fists flying up in the air Like we're holding onto something That's invisible there, 'Cause we're living at the mercy of The pain and the fear, Let it all disappear.
Waiting for the end to come Wishing I had strength to stand This is not what I had planned It's out of my control..
Flying at the speed of light Thoughts were spinning in my head So many things were left unsaid It's hard to let you go.. 

I know what it takes to move on, I know how it feels to lie, All I wanna do Is trade this life for something new. Holding on to what I haven't got.
Sitting in an empty room Trying to forget the past This was never meant to last, I wish it wasn't so... [
What was left when that fire was gone? I thought it felt right but that right was wrong. All caught up in the eye of the storm And trying to figure out what it's like moving on. So, picking up the pieces, now where to begin?  
The hardest part of ending Is starting again!
With fists flying up in the air Like we're holding onto something That's invisible there, 'Cause we're living at the mercy of The pain and the fear Let it all disappear 

-Linkin Park