Sick Of The Way Life Is

I'm sick of hearing about parties. I'm sick of going home everyday with nothing to do. I'm so sick of being the odd girl out. I'm so sick of watching my friends have fun while i sit at home with my parents. I wish things were different. I wish i was allowed to go out. I wish i could have fun with them. I wish my friends weren't so obsessed with drinking and partying. I wish i had friends like me. I wish I had people that understood me. I'm sick of high school. I'm sick of the people in it. I'm ready to move on with my life. Life is hard. I wish it was different. I feel so alone, here in my room.

It's Just One of Those Days

The world is spinning around me and i just want to hide. I want to crawl under my covers and forget the world is even there. I'm having a hard time. I'm having a hard time living with life. And i don't want help, I want to be sad. I want to feel down on myself. I want to be mad at life. It doesn't sound fun, but i'm okay with it for now. Things are the way the are.
My teenage years aren't like they're supposed to be. I feel like i'm the loser kid that has no friends and doesn't go to parties. I'm not having fun... I'm just existing i'm not even living. I'm so sick of life. I'm so sick of the way things are. I want a change. I want to smile, to have fun.
Today i just want to crawl under my covers and disappear. I want to pretend the world is going on without me. It's just one of those days...